Podcast

Last year I recorded a podcast episode with an incredibly talented storyteller, Kyle Gest, of the Lapse Podcast. Much of our conversation was based on my recollection of stories I was told about my mom and the circumstances around her disappearance. There was a lot of negativity in those conversations and they informed how I was feeling during the recording sessions with Kyle that led to the podcast linked above. I worried so much about what people would think when they listened to the episode. How would their feelings about me change? I still worry about how some of the things in the podcast will hurt people in my family.

Now, when I listen to the episode, there are a few things I would change and there is also a lot of new information that has has led to a broader understanding of the events leading up to her disappearance. I'm sharing this through my own networks and this site because this story needs to be heard! Most importantly, part two needs to be created to further delve into these theories and disseminate fact from fiction. 

Please share this story and other information you have.

-F

p.s. I also found this on Reddit- you can share your theories in the thread there too

Birthday Wishes

Yesterday was our mom's birthday. She'd be 46 this year. I've thought a lot about what she would look like today. I've even looked around for software that could age an image of her, so I'd have a better idea (the results were terrible). I feel crazy saying this, but no matter where I go, I look for her.  Recently, I was in Cuba with my partner to relax on the beach for a week. It was this trip that made me realize how important this search is to me. Even in Cuba I caught myself giving women who liked like her a double take. I worry that, without answers, my mind will never stop wondering if that could be her.

If you love some one who is missing, closure is something you long for. I've heard so many stories about my mom, some good, some.. not so much. There seem to be two very opposing schools of thought about who she was and what she was up to in the last few months before her disappearance. One thing I know for sure, the information, be it positive or negative has been a very powerful part of the healing process for me. Learning more about her, sharing information, and coming to the realization that I’m not alone in this, has brought so much comfort.

I might never know what happened to my mom, and I may spend the rest of my life peering into cars, getting the urge to chase women in shopping malls, and wondering if that girl I saw last month- that kind of looked like Salina- could be my sister.  Even though there is a good chance I'll never know the truth, I need to try, and I need your help. Please continue to share information. I want to hear all of your stories or memories about my mom, and any information you have about the circumstances around her disappearance.

For years I was terrified to start this process- scared of what I would find out- and scared I would pour all of my energy into this and find nothing. Both of those things still worry me, but I’ve learned enough in the past few months that I’m encouraged to push on. Maybe one day, it really will be her.  

-F

A Napkin from Australia

Going through my email today, I was thrilled to hear from my mom's cousin in Australia. She has kept a napkin that our mom scribbled on nearly 30 years ago. She said she remembers the joy on my mom's young face when she tasted her cookies and said, "These cookies are delicious!" Excitedly, my mom offered to share her recipe, she wrote it on a napkin that is pictured in the images section. As a young girl, she was maybe 8 years old at the time, she loved to bake and when people enjoyed her desserts she felt very accomplished. Both Salina and I can relate to this. Anyone who has ever been in our homes knows that we love to feed people. Something as simple as this story and a picture of our mom's handwriting brings us so much joy. We feel more connected to her through each memory shared with us. Please keep sharing! 

-F&S

Still Searching

It's been over 20 years since our mom went missing. She dropped us off at our babysitters house on November 9th, 1993, and was never seen or heard from again. We don't know if she's dead or alive, but we are searching for answers.

We have heard many of the stories and rumours that surround her disappearance. So many details are unclear and there are a lot of conflicting stories about what was going on in the days, weeks, and even months leading up to her disappearance.  

We are now attempting to create a timeline of her life in order to work with a private investigator to try to find answers for many questions that have remained unanswered for 22 years. We will make as much of the information public as possible so that people can comment on, and inform our investigation. Please see the about page for details from the police that were released when she went missing and all of the information we have collected. If you have anything to add to fill in our timeline, please post in the comments or submit a contact form. 

Anything you know about her, regardless of how trivial it may seem to you, could prove to be helpful to this investigation.  I ask that you also share stories about her, we don't have many memories and we would like to share yours.  

Finally, please share this page on social media to get the word out that we are looking for more information, stories, and memories of our mom.

Thank you. 

-F&S